"She was exactly like a child. She wanted to be with me
always. She tried to follow me everywhere, and on my next journey out and about
it went to my heart to tire her down, and leave her at last, exhausted and
calling after me rather plaintively. But the problems of the world had to be
mastered. I had not, I said to myself, come into the future to carry on a
miniature flirtation. Yet her distress when I left her was very great, her
expostulations at the parting were sometimes frantic, and I think, altogether,
I had as much trouble as comfort from her devotion.
Nevertheless she was,
somehow, a very great comfort. I thought it was mere childish affection that
made her cling to me. Until it was too late, I did not clearly know what I had
inflicted upon her when I left her. Nor until it was too late did I clearly
understand what she was to me. For, by merely seeming fond of me, and showing
in her weak, futile way that she cared for me, the little doll of a creature
presently gave my return to the neighbourhood of the White Sphinx almost the
feeling of coming home; and I would watch for her tiny figure of white and gold
so soon as I came over the hill.
"It was from her, too, that I learned that fear had not
yet left the world. She was fearless enough in the daylight, and she had the
oddest confidence in me; for once, in a foolish moment, I made threatening
grimaces at her, and she simply laughed at them. But she dreaded the dark,
dreaded shadows, dreaded black things. Darkness to her was the one thing
dreadful. It was a singularly passionate emotion, and it set me thinking and
observing. I discovered then, among other things, that these little people
gathered into the great houses after dark, and slept in droves.
To enter upon
them without a light was to put them into a tumult of apprehension. I never
found one out of doors, or one sleeping alone within doors, after dark. Yet I
was still such a blockhead that I missed the lesson of that fear, and in spite
of Weena's distress I insisted upon sleeping away from these slumbering
multitudes.
"It troubled her greatly, but in the end her odd
affection for me triumphed, and for five of the nights of our acquaintance,
including the last night of all, she slept with her head pillowed on my arm.
But my story slips away from me as I speak of her. It must have been the night
before her rescue that I was awakened about dawn. I had been restless, dreaming
most disagreeably that I was drowned, and that sea anemones were feeling over
my face with their soft palps.
I woke with a start, and with an odd fancy that
some greyish animal had just rushed out of the chamber. I tried to get to sleep
again, but I felt restless and uncomfortable. It was that dim grey hour when things
are just creeping out of darkness, when everything is colourless and clear cut,
and yet unreal. I got up, and went down into the great hall, and so out upon
the flagstones in front of the palace. I thought I would make a virtue of
necessity, and see the sunrise.
"The moon was setting, and the dying moonlight and the
first pallor of dawn were mingled in a ghastly half-light. The bushes were inky
black, the ground a sombre grey, the sky colourless and cheerless. And up the
hill I thought I could see ghosts.
There several times, as I scanned the slope,
I saw white figures. Twice I fancied I saw a solitary white, ape-like creature
running rather quickly up the hill, and once near the ruins I saw a leash of
them carrying some dark body. They moved hastily. I did not see what became of
them. It seemed that they vanished among the bushes. The dawn was still
indistinct, you must understand. I was feeling that chill, uncertain,
early-morning feeling you may have known. I doubted my eyes.
"As the eastern sky grew brighter, and the light of the
day came on and its vivid colouring returned upon the world once more, I
scanned the view keenly. But I saw no vestige of my white figures. They were
mere creatures of the half-light. 'They must have been ghosts,' I said; 'I wonder
whence they dated.' For a queer notion of Grant Allen's came into my head, and
amused me. If each generation die and leave ghosts, he argued, the world at
last will get overcrowded with them.
On that theory they would have grown
innumerable some Eight Hundred Thousand Years hence, and it was no great wonder
to see four at once. But the jest was unsatisfying, and I was thinking of these
figures all the morning, until Weena's rescue drove them out of my head. I
associated them in some indefinite way with the white animal I had startled in
my first passionate search for the Time Machine. But Weena was a pleasant
substitute. Yet all the same, they were soon destined to take far deadlier
possession of my mind.
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